As part of putting my father to rest, I had occasion to
drive back to where I used to live in Connecticut. I interacted with people
on Friday and, early on Saturday, drove myself out to the family house on Rock
Hill Rd in Woodbridge. It was still dark when I got there, so I spent an
hour driving around back roads north of there, in Beacon Falls. Then, when it got light
enough, I drove back to Woodbridge, passing a few other things that seemed
faintly familiar: a turn, a house, a road that maybe led to my junior high
school. Thanks to Tim MacSweeney I knew that the Elderslie Preserve in Woodbrige had rock piles, and I knew it was on Peck Hill Rd across on the other
side of the same hill from my old house, so I went to take a walk there. One
time my father and I went all the way through from our house to Peck Hill Rd,
so I knew there was continuous woods and I was thinking of walking in from the
other direction. The "Judges' Rock" is in there and I hoped to see
it.
I have to say that these Connecticut woods are gorgeous:
little undergrowth; yellow, red, and brown leaves on the
ground. And dark tree trunks rising up from the brightness underneath and
massive stone walls undulated along. After parking, I stayed to the right and saw rock piles
immediately. I did not have a camera. Were the piles a familiar type of
pile? I formed a general impression. Having gotten up at 4 AM Friday to drive
down there, and after getting up at 5:45, after little sleep, I was walking
around in a bit of a daze.
At every turn I came across places that seemed a little
familiar and seemed like someplace I had been with my father. And who could I
tell about finding rock piles there? We were blind to such things back in the
60's. So I stayed to the right and over the hill (heading roughly southeast)
and down into the valley - because that is what the topo map suggested when I
looked it over in preparation for this trip. And there were little clusters of
two or three piles every few minutes. The rocks were a pretty black with grey
lichen. At the foot of the slope a couple of piles, each with a beautiful piece
of quartz at the center. Quartz is not common around there. The bedrock is a schist-like
material called "Orange Phyllite". Seeing this material again, I
remembered how I used to collect garnets that erode out of its surface. And I
kept remembering little bits and pieces of the place. Down in that valley,
there was an obvious trail along the wetland (with rock piles every hundred
yards) and I remembered the Ansonia Trail - it was part of Connecticut's
"Blue Spot Trail System" - which we used to explore. Walking in the
woods was one of the few things my father and I did together. So I remember one time
following the Ansonia Trail west, as far as we could go. Back then the trail
disappeared near the edge of a swamp over by Peck Hill Rd.
Today, I might have better luck finding the trail
because my eyes have learned to see subtle things. For example in these woods, there were
trails everywhere, crisscrossing the place. We have to conclude: either the
Pecks were Indians, interacted with Indians, or never disturbed what was
already there when they owned the place. Surely almost no-one has gone into
these woods since then. The rock piles were everywhere. This is a big ceremonial
area and one wonders: why? My guess is that the wetland I mention is one of the
sources of the Naugatuck River, and Peck Hill - with its "Judges'
Rock" is a significant landmark for the area. The reason for the name
"Judge's Rock" was it was a well-known Indian lookout - from
which one could watch New Haven and the coming and going of troops. I think
Mavor and Dix may write about how the Indians helped those Judges (they were
the ones who condemned Charles I to death, who were on the run later on, when
the monarchy was restored). And I walked up, and I walked down, I explored
behind a bush and found a little stone box that looked recent. And I came to a
flat area and remembered being there alone and maybe being there also with my
father. And this time I could see rock piles in almost every direction. The
largest I had seen - and they look a lot like what I call 'marker piles" -
but with an unstructured layout. And I walked to the north edge, looking down into
the valley, remembering the roads and little foundations on that slope and
discussions we had about what kind of small village must have been over there.
All these small things I had forgotten. As a child, I used to dream of Indians in those
woods, I used to imagine them sitting on the same rock where I would camp.
Now I see signs of the Indians everywhere. I wish
someone could have shown them to me when I was a child.
I want to say that as you get older, there is an increased
desire to somehow express the infinite. Express the relationship one has with
parents and children or (for me) between my father and my sons. And as I am
walking along feeling somewhat poetic, I realize that the rock pile itself is
the best possible expression of these things. It seems more permanent but it also will
vanish eventually. Hoping I can show these woods to my sons, I am filled with sorrow about how time passes.